The Power of Prayer! Believe!

I was reading the previous post and played the song - Be Still. I started to tear. I realised I have always posted writings here about needing His graces. Yes, this is another one about it. Because I feel that this time I really can only depend on His healing and mercy on us.

I recall last year this time, I was also preparing to go on a school trip and my health seemed to light up some issues. I kept my fingers crossed, prayed but not very hard and went on with the trip. I came back and had a positive health report though some areas requires improvement.

I haven't been well the past few days. In short, if medical report out next week shows that it is only bacteria infection, it is good news. Otherwise, it may be something else which would require further investigations. I went back to office today, discussed with a colleague and we both agree that I should inform my host partner that I may not make it to the trip this time. Just to get her prepared in case the report really doesn't turn out good.

In the midst of settling some urgent work at hand, she called. It was a timely reminder that I had to inform. I called her back a short while later as I was occupied with something urgent. She was very surprised to hear what I told her. But instead of sounding negative, she gave me encouragement and reminded me that I need to believe in God's healing. She's a Christian by the way. She reiterated that I need to keep my faith and believe in the power of prayer. We spoke about some work and before we hang up, she offered to pray for me over the phone. I was very heartened to know and accepted it. I needed it very much at this moment. While she was praying about 3/4 through, I felt as though something just took the pain away and also lifted my spirit. I felt so joyful, never before in the past few days. The gift of joy was certainly in me. I told her right away when the prayer ended and we both believe that it was the power of prayer. There is definitely no doubt about it.

She taught me a lesson. I need to continue to believe the healing power of our Lord. I just need to believe and not doubt. He will make all things beautiful again, in His time. I have been rescued by Him so many times, he will help me through this round. Let go and believe! Please keep me in your prayers.

My Graces Are ENOUGH For You!

It's been an adventurous weekend. So many events and one totally unexpected. And not a good one. Today's second reading was a reminder from God that I am weak but He is strong.

Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. ⁸ Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. ⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. ” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Cor 12:7-10 

I need to place my trust in Him and know that He will take the lead. That in His name He will provide the covering and blessings.

But he said, "What is impossible with man is possible with God.”
Luke: 18:27

Remembering....

Today, I learnt from the news that an ex-colleague has passed away. She is a producer with the national tv station and the first producer I worked with when I was there during my short stint.

She isn't the easiest person you will work with but neither is she as tough as you think she may torture. I have learnt a lot from her about life lessons and some of those things that she said still rings in my ears. Some of the things she said is quite a common sense and I have known but it's the way she put it forward to me when I was still a newbie AP then that I understand it from a different perspective.

I remember getting scoldings from her when I wrote wrong chinese words in my daily production to her and when I reacted slower than she expect. No matter what, she has taught me a great deal and in some ways has been kinder than some colleagues then to me.

Some years ago I met her at an event which I was helping out and I called out to her. She was surprised that I remembered her name. I certainly will and will remember for a long time.

May you rest in peace. You have run your race and won yourself some milestones in life. Till we meet again, someday...

Idealism vs Realism

Change is always the constant. As such, many times what we hope for ideally may not realistic in actual situations. Many people often bring along their ideals to environments that they are involved in. Some will accept changes when reality seems different, some will resist the change. What will you do?

There are no systems or processes that can appease everybody. It's whether you accept and follow it or you challenge it by coming up with a better solution.

If you think you know more than anybody and is saddened that why reality is not as what you perceived it should be, perhaps it's time to wake up and accept the real world.

Yes!!

This day has finally arrived. 5 years of hard work, sweat, blood and tears. Yes, if you are wondering, yes, I got what I had wanted.

When my boss first told me that I would stand a good chance for promotions this year I didn't put much thought about it. I didn't want to have a great disappointment when it doesn't happen. And then I also thought to myself that if I should get it, the management probably put in some 'pity marks' for me to score because of the bee sting incident. Then friends and colleagues around me before this day has been encouraging me to accept it if it happens because I truly deserve it. I think I was the first few who were called in to my big boss room. When I saw him holding two letters in his hands (two letters is clear indication for promotion), I knew I got it. I just smiled and it was uncontrollable. I am happy of course. I admit that I still feel being able to get this is partly due to the bee incident.

Well, this happy occasion only comes to tell that greater responsibilities will come. New role and more duties will land on my lap. Guess that is only natural to want to move and progress.

Come what may! I know the Lord will walk with me. And my feelings now - grateful!

Joy

About 2 weeks ago, we ran our leadership camp by ourselves for the very first time. We conducted our own workshops, came up with the topics and went all out to play our students. Other than one person, the whole team of officers just came together and made the camp happened. We had our doubts and our apprehensions. Even the students were surprised at what we could deliver. Heh heh... kiddos, don't underestimate what we are capable of. Otherwise, we wouldn't be at our jobs. And this team synergy has been strong since then.

Today is a happy day. We celebrated 2 birthdays at office and both were surprises at separate times for the birthday boy and girl. We came together playfully to surprise a new colleague for her birthday and an old grumpy guard for his. Both of them is often thought as unfriendly but today we put smiles on both of them. To be honest, I have never felt this spirit is good for a loooooong time. I hope the synergy at office will remain like this.

Bruised

This has been a whole week of training for me. Not a good time actually but not much of choice due to the various window time frame.

Yesterday morning while I was driving along a highway to my training site, the sun, my shades and the music in my car gave such a refreshing and hopeful feel. I was playing At The Cross by Hillsong. Suddenly I just felt that the morning was so good, so hopeful. That no matter how hard the day may be, I know the Lord will be walking with me. I was tempted to capture down that moment but I was alone in the car and I can't stop by the road. For safety sake I missed putting that moment in a photo frame.

Today, was the last day of training and it was held in school. Somehow, attending in school is always more distracting. I just somewhat couldn't focus on the training contents. My heart and mind was thinking about what work needs to be done and finished this week. So when it came to my turn to practice my facilitation skills, I felt so unprepared. Partially my fault for not putting in enough effort and understanding. And I just carried out the task, moving it through motion, without using my brains much. At the debrief, I was critiqued and yes, comments didn't come nice. I didn't explain nor defended myself but just nodded to show signs of acceptance. Inside me, I was angry. Angry with myself but I figured maybe I should just remain silent. Not life and death, only a matter if you could swallow what was being said and allow my ego to be bruised. Those who know me well, they would probably be expecting that I would want to "fight back" but today I just let it go. This afternoon I felt that I lost an opportunity to showcase what I can do. Now thinking back, it wasn't a bad thing. The least I showed to the newbies that as a senior, I am able to take and handle criticisms. How many senior employees in any organisation can do that? Humility.

Of course this is a painful lesson. One that would leave deep impression for a long time. There's always an opportunity to show what I can do. In His time, I know He will lead me to do it well.

"You tore the veil, You made a way! When you said that is done." At the Cross, Hillsong.