When is rest?

Tired. One word that describes me best now. I'm 7 days to leaving. I don't have all my equipment yet, I'm not done with the work that I'm supposed to finish. Well, work can never be finished anyway.

It's just so over-whelming these last few days. My comfort comes from one song. Maybe it's the tune, maybe it's the lyrics.


Love Song for #1 by Corrine May

In the twinkling stars that dance like fireflies
In the blushing fruit that hangs upon the vine
In the face of a baby as he forms his first smile
I see you

In the whisper of the wind's soft lullaby
In the laughter and the roar of the rushing tide
In the song of the sparrow as he takes his first flight
I hear you

Why do you hide among the nameless and the forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads?
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst

So I'll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right but so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won't be too long
Till I see you

Why do you hide among the nameless and the forgotten
Why do you walk along these long forsaken roads?
Calling to me in the hungry and the homeless
Calling me to water your thirst

So I'll give you my heart and my song
In a world where so much is right but so much is wrong
Your love is my beginning and I know it won't be too long
Till I see you
I hear you
I love you

Angst!

Pissing mad! Yes, so angry that I don't know how to put it in words. Am I asking for too much? What defines trust? Does age correlates to it? All I can say is that you have been living in a too protected environment. When you ask me to understand what you're in now, can you also understand what you have asked for yourselves to be in, please? I didn't force you or put you on this trip.

Tired

I'm tired, feels like a burnout from training and work.

I need Him, His graces. I know I need to make an effort to get back what's lost between us. This situation is not new to me. Divine intervention, please!

Progress

Had 4 jabs today. Arms feeling so sore and aching now. Did my ECG test as well. Result was 'Normal' :) The only concern is about my BP - higher than my usual reading. I told Dr Lim probably because when I'm sick, I'm less stressed ... haha... :P

It's progress again for EBC.

He has the answers...

"Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock."

"Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing."

"Life is wonderful if you know how to live."

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I'm counting down to the days to leave for EBC. Just came back from some equipment shopping. I'm thankful that I am on a trip with an experienced guide despite his unwillingness to go because of snobbish attitude students.

More trainings to go. And yes, while I'm questioning their fitness, they are also doubting my experience in this trek. So be it. Actions will tell. Anyway, don't let your egos over-rule your mind. Bruises can happen anytime.