I finally hit the pool again after more than one month of busy-ness. Felt so nuah and engine definitely having problem while starting up. Every stroke was not as easy as it used to be. Co-ordination between hands and legs was so clumsy. Muscles felt so stiff. I ended the session with a brewing headache.
Maybe I was too anxious and ambitious in getting back to regime. At one point of time, I was just pulling and kicking water for the sake of moving on and completing the lap. Of course, there were also a few good laps where everything just worked out well. I thought 20 laps was possible but only managed to do 16, and it was a struggle.
Somewhat my experience today seems akin to my life now. Every pull and kick is just to keep my body moving forward. And it is when I suddenly realise that I am losing focus and concentration, I began to try and re-start with proper strokes. A little of fumbling but after a short while, I can put things under control and all goes on again like normal.
I'm hoping to swim again in 2 days time and do better then. My life too.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Thoughts...
This week is just staying home, catching up on some errands and the last few days of it to Malacca for a short break. Had actually planned to be climbing in Taiwan now but with my knee condition and added heel tendons issues, it's a no go.
It feels great to be at home after so many days which I'm away from in September. I dreaded that month, wasn't looking forward to it and now, it is over. After this break, there is another month to dread - November.
The coming of November spells different challenges for me. 1. Surgery 2. Work (part 2).
I'm so not wanting to start school so soon cos when it does, I have 2 weeks to clear all the unenrolled students and then, THE day will come. Maybe because I have heard too many stories of how knee surgeries fail. As much as I am not keen, I don't think I have a choice. In normal times my knee easily swells already. I am apprehensive of the outcome.
And work is not helping with most of my competitions scheduled to take place in November. I will have to hobble around from place to place. And to add, I got to host one of them. I trust that God will grant me the graces when the time comes. He sure knows how big is my plate and how much to put on it.
One step at a time, I need to face the biggest fear first. Praying hard that the rest will fall into place when the time comes.
It feels great to be at home after so many days which I'm away from in September. I dreaded that month, wasn't looking forward to it and now, it is over. After this break, there is another month to dread - November.
The coming of November spells different challenges for me. 1. Surgery 2. Work (part 2).
I'm so not wanting to start school so soon cos when it does, I have 2 weeks to clear all the unenrolled students and then, THE day will come. Maybe because I have heard too many stories of how knee surgeries fail. As much as I am not keen, I don't think I have a choice. In normal times my knee easily swells already. I am apprehensive of the outcome.
And work is not helping with most of my competitions scheduled to take place in November. I will have to hobble around from place to place. And to add, I got to host one of them. I trust that God will grant me the graces when the time comes. He sure knows how big is my plate and how much to put on it.
One step at a time, I need to face the biggest fear first. Praying hard that the rest will fall into place when the time comes.
Friday, October 2, 2009
'Sorry' - seems to be the hardest word
Not a song but a reality that have learnt before and seen for myself today. I have come to appreciate the fact that saying 'sorry' is a valuable lesson that not many people can master well. Apologising to some people could even feel like taking a piece of flesh out from them.
Today, I saw for myself how a very prideful and ego student got bruised by the need to do this. He is often the one who knows when to behave, when to play kind. By a mistake, a critical one, that he made, unveiled a different side of him. Well, he did eventually offered apologies at the end, not discounting that fact.
I'm sure most of us (those who are adults) surely have our teenage struggles. Creating an identity for ourselves was probably one that most to cope with. To want to be whom we are not, and so many other situations. All these that may seemed small but has somewhat molded us to become what we are today, by our beliefs and attitudes. For this student, being able to humble himself to say sorry was THE challenge. I wish all the best and look forward to a better him.
Today, I saw for myself how a very prideful and ego student got bruised by the need to do this. He is often the one who knows when to behave, when to play kind. By a mistake, a critical one, that he made, unveiled a different side of him. Well, he did eventually offered apologies at the end, not discounting that fact.
I'm sure most of us (those who are adults) surely have our teenage struggles. Creating an identity for ourselves was probably one that most to cope with. To want to be whom we are not, and so many other situations. All these that may seemed small but has somewhat molded us to become what we are today, by our beliefs and attitudes. For this student, being able to humble himself to say sorry was THE challenge. I wish all the best and look forward to a better him.
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