Listen from within

Wokay, got back a few days ago from the divers' marine conservation project. Honestly, I only know what was needed to be done, exactly how, it was just a vague idea. After going through the difficult moments and finally when the buoys were anchored, reef structures were sunk and anchored nicely, I can't help but to feel a great sense of satisfaction. This is probably one of the best things I have done for this club.

I started to fall sick on the 4th day of the dive. I had wanted so much to be there when they sink the structure. And the worst part, I suggested a leisure dive at Lang Island as a treat for the divers. And for both occasions, I can only snorkel on the surface. Argh!!! It was a struggle. So near yet so far. I was very tempted to just give it a shot. And I thought, if anything were to happen, MAYBE I would be able to react and surface in time, I could still save my own life. Nothing MAY actually happen. I would have survived the dive. Trust me, it was like a 'Angel' and 'Devil' thought over my head. And then I thought I would actually be depriving my dive buddy to ascend just because of my own selfishness to want to do something. Worst still, how would it affect the group if something happens to me. Sek Chuan's words were somewhat an answer I was hoping that the Divine One would give me. Ok, so I stayed on the surface.

That last morning, Nash words were affirmation to my decisions. He agreed that I made the right call. Thank you Lord for the wisdom that you have given me. When we trek or climb, it is often said that the mountain is always there. I would like to think and say to the divers, the sea is always there too. We only have 1 life.

Sometimes, it isn't that we aren't listening or discerning. Rather, we have opted for selected listening, internally even. I've seen this in my students, colleaguees and people around me. In difficult situations, how many times do we allow ourselves to listen to what is going to be told to us or do we jump the gun first? I'm glad that I didn't let my mind rule over my decisions this time.

I know He has always there protecting me. I'm grateful, truly blessed. It's these little things that many times we don't see and appreciate Him. Lead me Lord, in all my down trodden roads, for I know You'll never give me more than what I can cope. Thank YOU! :D