It's been a year

It's been a year. It seemed like only yesterday that I was chasing the clubs for their Open House plans. After some checking on the booths set-ups and meeting the guests I'm supposed to host, the stop after all the meet-ups and walkarounds suddenly dawned upon me that I've been in NP for more than a year.

A year ago, I started work with all the enthusiasm and apprehensions [I'm still enthusiastic about my work anyway :)]. I plunged in to Open House and started to work with groups that some eventually fell on laps. Stepping onto the Admin Field with the 3 same adventure clubs there, the feeling is simply different. It was more of supervisory role, less talk last year. This year still a little supervisory but it was conversations and teases.

I'm blessed. Truly blessed. The 2 adventure clubs with me underwent all the pressure and uncertainty and this coming Saturday will mark a new chapter, a new name, a new logo, a new purpose. Come next Saturday, a new beginning for another. Have we evolved? I hope so, really. Sometimes, I ask myself if all the efforts are worth it. Students being students will just want their way through. They didn't have much of a choice to change. Their dreams and aspirations and not forgetting new KPIs. Let's pray that the change are for a better and not worse. God, give me the graces to sustain through.

A friend once told me that I should let go more and let the students take charge. Hah!! What is missing between me and the students? Trust? Yeah, not fully but partly... and I'm not alone. After all that has happened the last 2 months, it's proven that this cannot be done when they try and matters into their own hands and think that they are right. Ya, try handle a club with traditions, how arrogant and stubborn those people can be. The last that I would like to hear from the people around me are judgemental statements they pass about my work. If you know what I mean.

It's been non-stop since school started. All's slowing down soon nearing to CNY but not for me. Well, at least a little bit more space to breathe. Sometimes I really wonder why some people can just get off so easily? Maybe I'm just being too nice at work.