I'm leaving on a school trip in less than 24hrs time, not motivated to pack, not keen to go in the first place. But I don't have a choice. I am the Staff Advisor, I have the duty of care over them. Well I guess if I'm going with friends the feeling will be different now.
I'm motivating myself to look forward to campfire. After that night, the next day we'll be returning. Yay!Honestly, I rather tolerate a tougher training at Kallang than to go tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Eventful
September started with an outreach camp, then was cutter sailing course, then next week I'm following on a overseas school trip, then a 5 day ropes safety course. And when I thought all will end, there is a sea expedition by another club. This is my September. Workathon. Hardly any good rest, really.
And a colleague will only know how to say I should schedule meetings to work on the upcoming projects when she herself takes 2.5 weeks of leave. Are you expecting me to work by your schedule? Hello?!!?!?! Is it wrong for me to take leave after you return? And my fault for having so much activities in this break? Why don't you just take an initiative to takeover one of my these mentioned event from me? Else, I think you should just shut your gap.
Now I'm trying to nail down a destination for a good break. I really need one to get away from all these. 9 days is certainly not enough but better than nothing.
And a colleague will only know how to say I should schedule meetings to work on the upcoming projects when she herself takes 2.5 weeks of leave. Are you expecting me to work by your schedule? Hello?!!?!?! Is it wrong for me to take leave after you return? And my fault for having so much activities in this break? Why don't you just take an initiative to takeover one of my these mentioned event from me? Else, I think you should just shut your gap.
Now I'm trying to nail down a destination for a good break. I really need one to get away from all these. 9 days is certainly not enough but better than nothing.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Blank
I thought I had a lot to say. But when I entered into my blog, my mind went blank. Maybe I'm just so overwhelmed. So many things, too many emotions. One thing for sure I know is that I know I'm draining out. And so badly.
I really need a break badly. I just feel like stopping and stop. Let go. But I can't. Break. A good break is really what I need.
I really need a break badly. I just feel like stopping and stop. Let go. But I can't. Break. A good break is really what I need.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Old Friends
I saw this at a food court recently - It takes a long time to grow old friends.
Literally so. And I'm appreciative that I have a group of "old friends" whom I grew up with. They are like vintage red wine, the longer it is kept, the greater the value. We used go to camps, BBQs, outings, movies, getting spiritual and many more things we do together. We used to tell off each other's strengths and weaknesses, to crying moments. These "old friends" are priceless to me, greater value than being vintage wine.
Have you ever heard people proclaiming as "You are my friend". I have heard too much of this statement in the recent months until now I think it has been abused. Friends who would make decisions with bearing of irresponsibilities to one, who may think that all said is like fairytale.
What makes you a friend? Actually it is very simple. I read a quote today, "The best vitamin for being a friend - B1". Think about it, what will you do to be one?
For me, thank you my "old friends". I may not be able to be there all the time for you but I'm certainly grateful for what you as friend is to me.
Literally so. And I'm appreciative that I have a group of "old friends" whom I grew up with. They are like vintage red wine, the longer it is kept, the greater the value. We used go to camps, BBQs, outings, movies, getting spiritual and many more things we do together. We used to tell off each other's strengths and weaknesses, to crying moments. These "old friends" are priceless to me, greater value than being vintage wine.
Have you ever heard people proclaiming as "You are my friend". I have heard too much of this statement in the recent months until now I think it has been abused. Friends who would make decisions with bearing of irresponsibilities to one, who may think that all said is like fairytale.
What makes you a friend? Actually it is very simple. I read a quote today, "The best vitamin for being a friend - B1". Think about it, what will you do to be one?
For me, thank you my "old friends". I may not be able to be there all the time for you but I'm certainly grateful for what you as friend is to me.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
A decision I made
I have been telling friends who asked about my knee condition that I will be going for an op in a few months time. To tell the truth, I am scared. Not so much about the pain but if the op would really make a difference to my condition. I know I need to trust what the doc and physio say. Since I layed off a no. of sports I have seen the side effects and I also lost my fitness. This is so pek chek. I need divine peace.
Monday, August 10, 2009
A Humble Learning
Saturday games by my hockey boys was a good lesson to learn. It is the last game we play before breaking for exams. I could sit on the bench, for the first time, because it was a game which we did not have any players for substitution. Not because we are a strong and confident team but that 6 of my key players was not there for various reasons. 2 were supposed to turn up but our wait was realy in vain.
In less than 5 mins of the opening, we let in a goal. By half time, the score was 2-0 against us. In the 2nd half, we changed strategy and slotted in a goal. Keeping our fingers crossed we had hope to equalised but a silly mistake at shot corner cost us another goal.
We had our chances but our forwards were just to raw and new. The finishings were bad. I sat on the bench watching, shouting in at times and praying hard for 2 more players to turn up. Then I started feel a pinch psychologically. We had been winning every match all these times, even against the intimidating teams. I felt the lost as hard as my players who fought it out on the field. I had them wanting to win so much. So so much. Because I know they have yet to really meet the stronger teams which we may not do well.
Though the team wants to win, I felt that I wanted that win even harder. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I have always been that competitive and the past successes have gotten too much into me. When the game ended, I took a few minutes to recollect my emotions. And at this point, it is my lesson to learn. There are games that I go to and expect a win, there are also those I expect to lose. It is always those that I want my teams to win and that when they lose, I find it hard to accept.
Saturday was a humble learning, to be able to cope with a loss and disappointment. Just like in life, there will be times when it's smooth sailing and also times when things bring you down. And what's important is when you fall how you pick yourself up and move on.
In less than 5 mins of the opening, we let in a goal. By half time, the score was 2-0 against us. In the 2nd half, we changed strategy and slotted in a goal. Keeping our fingers crossed we had hope to equalised but a silly mistake at shot corner cost us another goal.
We had our chances but our forwards were just to raw and new. The finishings were bad. I sat on the bench watching, shouting in at times and praying hard for 2 more players to turn up. Then I started feel a pinch psychologically. We had been winning every match all these times, even against the intimidating teams. I felt the lost as hard as my players who fought it out on the field. I had them wanting to win so much. So so much. Because I know they have yet to really meet the stronger teams which we may not do well.
Though the team wants to win, I felt that I wanted that win even harder. I don't know why. Maybe it's because I have always been that competitive and the past successes have gotten too much into me. When the game ended, I took a few minutes to recollect my emotions. And at this point, it is my lesson to learn. There are games that I go to and expect a win, there are also those I expect to lose. It is always those that I want my teams to win and that when they lose, I find it hard to accept.
Saturday was a humble learning, to be able to cope with a loss and disappointment. Just like in life, there will be times when it's smooth sailing and also times when things bring you down. And what's important is when you fall how you pick yourself up and move on.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Tea Bag
I'm like a tea bag soaked in a pot of hot water. The only thing I wonder is how thick will the tea be? That's an analogy used on a person in various situations. For me, the analogy adds further that the tea bag is being stuffed with more tea leaves now. How much more can the bag take? But then still, does it mean the more tea leaves it is stuffed the stronger the brew will be?
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